Shouta KISA

Why do I always do this? I fall in love with someone, then I get all these and then I feel brokenhearted. And It’s always my fault.

There are guys out there who are just like those prince-like dudes in shoujo manga. They’re surrounded by sparkles and flowers. I hate these flashy guys, and yet… And yet I love… his face.

Since he’s always so understanding, I can’t help but have… things like ‘Maybe he doesn’t even like me that much’ cross my mind.

My problem is probably that I don’t have any confidence about anything I do. Even if the thing I want most is right in front of me, I can’t help but imagine a future where I’m being rejected by it. I’m scared of getting hurt, so I run away from the people I love. What a good-for-nothing loser.

Love in real life isn’t as smooth as in manga.

Love at first sight works well enough in a manga, but this is reality.

It was love at first sight. But we have no connection, beyond that of a customer and a cashier.

In any case, I really need to stop… falling in love with people based on looks alone. But what can I do when he’s perfect?

I’d be the first one to ask why he chose me.

I know that a short, old man who’s into beautiful guys… can’t expect to experience real romance. That’s why I’m only looking.

I guess this is what they call… first love.

I can’t take his beauty when I’m this worn out…

He may be good at his job, but he freaks me out!

But then, as my career progressed, and I got to know more and more people from this industry, I realized that I was a normal person. It’s not that I can’t do my job, but I’m not anything special either.

But the more you work on something, the more neglected you become.

Actually, being washed away might not be so bad. Sometimes… I feel like I’m just sinking…